Angel of Thoughtfulness

So, I've been visited lately by an angel of thoughtfulness. For the last couple of days, I have found little gifts at my front doorstep. The first day was a snowman mug with a nice little note inside...."Bailey's Please!" Not Bailey's please? with a question mark, but more of a demanding "fill this mug up now!" in a really friendly font sort of way. :) Somebody knew exactly what kind of day I had had! :)

Yesterday I was sitting at the table working on a Christmas craft project (trying to find my groove) and Matt brought in a nice little white envelope with my name on it and said "now I'm getting jealous". :) Inside was a beautifully decorated magnet that read "consider yourself hugged". Done...I felt hugged! and very loved.

So....THANK YOU to my sweet little angel for your thoughtfulness and gift giving. I know this is a very busy time of year where time and money always seem to stretch a little thinner than we are comfortable with, so thank you for taking the time and energy to let me know I'm loved. I've got a mug full of hot tottie and I'm wrapped in a hug. What more could a girl need! :) (besides a bottle of advil for this migraine I've had for two days!! )

Thank you!!

How DID Stella get her groove back??

I never saw the movie, so I don't know how to do it, but I feel like I've lost my "groove" and I need to get it back. Oh, I don't think it's like I "just" lost it...I've been losing it now for a number of years. I also think I've lost my Christmas spirit too somewhere, so if you see it....will you remind me where it is. And in case you don't get a Christmas card, please don't take it personally. You see...I've lost my motivation to do anything as well.
Maybe I need to go practice those warrior poses!

Journey Rai

Well, I missed posting on Journey's actual birthday (yesterday) and was really feeling like a jerk of an auntie. So....today I wanted to post my tribute to this angel girl.

J - joyful heart

O - old soul

U - undeniably beautiful

R - radiating peace

N - nuturer of her baby dolls :)

E - easy to love

Y -yellow ray of sunshine!

We love you Journey and can't wait to see you today at your birthday party! :)

Inspired!

I don't know what's going on, but I've had this CRAZY burst of creative energy lately! It feels so good to be creating...I've already completed 3 projects since yesterday!! I feel like I'm some kind of creative super hero or something....creating...at the speed of light! :) I can't say that everything I've created is beautiful in the least, but it just feels good to be using my brain for something different than what it's been used for lately. Last night I kept waking up with all kinds of ideas. I really don't know where this came from but I'm welcoming it with open arms. :)

For quite a while now I've been wanting to add some new colors to my family room and kitchen palette. We've lived with black, brown and cranberry red for quite a while now. With just a little tweaking I think I could morph it into a new refreshing look by just adding a few things here and there. This photo is the color palette my heart is desiring at the moment. I think these colors are beautiful and these prints just make me feel happy! I think I really need this additional color in my life right now...so will you hold me accountable for making this change?

46 XY

It was chomosomally normal. And it was a little boy. I received the test results from my doctor this morning regarding the tissue they collected from the d&c. I wasn't expecting the test results to be normal and I really wasn't prepared to know what the sex of the baby was. But I'm glad to know these things now. I've been really emotional all day. Knowing this information doesn't make the situation any more "real" because it's always been very real but it somehow causes me to feel an even deeper sense of loss. We were going to have a little boy....and I want him back.
Matt has reminded me that this is all positive information. We got pregnant. There were no abnormalities. Yes...those things are good, but what about the ache in my heart? What do I do with that? Now, more than ever, I feel like I need to do something to acknowledge this soul and to bring closure to the experience. I want to write him a letter and tell him how much he was loved and how happy I would have been to be his mom.
I just wanted to share this information with you...for whatever reason...maybe to acknowledge his existence for just a little longer before closing the door and trying to move on.

Congratulations!!!

Congratulations Mom and Uncle Ken!! You made it ~ 60 miles, 3 days, 1 cause. I am so incredibly proud of both of you and know the dedication you have given this weekend for the past year. At closing ceremonies tonight, they announced that this walk raised over 5 million dollars!! Can you imagine how the world will benefit from that?? I know this year was a bit harder than last year for you both and I just want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for fighting through the pain and mishaps along the way to help find a cure for this horrible disease. I have lots of pitcures to post from this weekend, but (like you :)) I'm ready for bed!! I'll post the pics tomorrow. I just wanted to say a sincere "thank you" to both of you. You truly amaze me!!
Way to go "Juanita's Kids"!!!!
P.S. Uncle Ken I hope so much that you are doing okay and feeling better. :)
Love you!!

Happy Birthday Brittni and Cory!!!!

Happy Birthday my dear sweet sisters!!! I love you so much and wish you a wonderful year full of wishes come true, happiness, peace and new adventures. You are both amazing women, friends and sisters and I don't know what I'd do without you both. You have helped me through so much and I know that you both are ALWAYS there for me. I love you and appreciate you from the bottom of my heart!

B - bravely strong
R - radiantly unique
I - irresistably entertaining
T - tenderly caring
T - there for me always
N - never gives up
I - incomplete without her family :)
AND
C - courageous and caring
O - optimistic
R - ray of sunshine
Y - yearner of peace

You are both all of these things and I love you so much! Enjoy the last years of your twenties!! :) Happy Birthday!!