Saturday, November 10, 2007


I don't know what's going on, but I've had this CRAZY burst of creative energy lately! It feels so good to be creating...I've already completed 3 projects since yesterday!! I feel like I'm some kind of creative super hero or the speed of light! :) I can't say that everything I've created is beautiful in the least, but it just feels good to be using my brain for something different than what it's been used for lately. Last night I kept waking up with all kinds of ideas. I really don't know where this came from but I'm welcoming it with open arms. :)
For quite a while now I've been wanting to add some new colors to my family room and kitchen palette. We've lived with black, brown and cranberry red for quite a while now. With just a little tweaking I think I could morph it into a new refreshing look by just adding a few things here and there. This photo is the color palette my heart is desiring at the moment. I think these colors are beautiful and these prints just make me feel happy! I think I really need this additional color in my life right will you hold me accountable for making this change?

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

46 XY

It was chomosomally normal. And it was a little boy. I received the test results from my doctor this morning regarding the tissue they collected from the d&c. I wasn't expecting the test results to be normal and I really wasn't prepared to know what the sex of the baby was. But I'm glad to know these things now. I've been really emotional all day. Knowing this information doesn't make the situation any more "real" because it's always been very real but it somehow causes me to feel an even deeper sense of loss. We were going to have a little boy....and I want him back.
Matt has reminded me that this is all positive information. We got pregnant. There were no abnormalities. Yes...those things are good, but what about the ache in my heart? What do I do with that? Now, more than ever, I feel like I need to do something to acknowledge this soul and to bring closure to the experience. I want to write him a letter and tell him how much he was loved and how happy I would have been to be his mom.
I just wanted to share this information with you...for whatever reason...maybe to acknowledge his existence for just a little longer before closing the door and trying to move on.

Sunday, November 4, 2007


Congratulations Mom and Uncle Ken!! You made it ~ 60 miles, 3 days, 1 cause. I am so incredibly proud of both of you and know the dedication you have given this weekend for the past year. At closing ceremonies tonight, they announced that this walk raised over 5 million dollars!! Can you imagine how the world will benefit from that?? I know this year was a bit harder than last year for you both and I just want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for fighting through the pain and mishaps along the way to help find a cure for this horrible disease. I have lots of pitcures to post from this weekend, but (like you :)) I'm ready for bed!! I'll post the pics tomorrow. I just wanted to say a sincere "thank you" to both of you. You truly amaze me!!
Way to go "Juanita's Kids"!!!!
P.S. Uncle Ken I hope so much that you are doing okay and feeling better. :)
Love you!!

Happy Birthday Brittni and Cory!!!!

Happy Birthday my dear sweet sisters!!! I love you so much and wish you a wonderful year full of wishes come true, happiness, peace and new adventures. You are both amazing women, friends and sisters and I don't know what I'd do without you both. You have helped me through so much and I know that you both are ALWAYS there for me. I love you and appreciate you from the bottom of my heart!

B - bravely strong
R - radiantly unique
I - irresistably entertaining
T - tenderly caring
T - there for me always
N - never gives up
I - incomplete without her family :)
C - courageous and caring
O - optimistic
R - ray of sunshine
Y - yearner of peace

You are both all of these things and I love you so much! Enjoy the last years of your twenties!! :) Happy Birthday!!

Saturday, November 3, 2007

One Day Down

Congratulations Uncle Ken and Mom!! One day down and 2 more to go. You both amaze me at your determination and stamina. I think this is a great photo of you both yesterday morning at 6:30am at the opening ceremonies. It was great to be a part of that!

Way to go!!!